Rest in peaceAs a transgender person, I feel for Leelah. I also wanted to commit suicide this year, plenty of times. At one point, I seriously couldn't handle myself nor my feelings towards my gender. Her death shocked me as much as those who knew her or just heard her story. I hope her parents will burn in their guilt, it's disgusting to see how they treated their own child, their own daughter. I guess some people won't notice what they've done until it's too late (oh but her parents didn't even after she chose the worst possible way to end her pain).I really thought I'd be just like her this year. She was so close getting through the December. I just.. ugh, I feel so horrible. I wish, hope, pray that no one else has to go through that. We need to raise awareness of gender issues, because we are real. We aren't just puppets with fake backgrounds. This shit is real, dysphoria isn't just for hypocritical individuals. Some of us do need the hormone therapies and surgeries and they should be provided
Anime memeIf there's any spoilers you didn't want to hear or see, I'm sorry! 1) Your favorite Anime?:2) Favourite male character? Shota (or Shouta) Kazehaya!3) Favourite female character? Obviously Kurumi-chan (Ume Kurumizawa)! (・u・)......PFFFFFFFFFHH I'M JUST JOKING, I liked her only for a few seconds because I know that her pretty face won't cover her mean personality. ಠ_ಠSee, that's so mean.. (・~・) So here's the real cutie;Hng, she's just so beautiful<3I also love Mio-chan (Mio Akiyama). She's the main reason why I started to play bass guitar.4) Least favourite character? Miner
A meetingI had a meeting with my homeroom teacher, therapist and my father. We talked about my current situation with school, shared a few comments about me and when one of the topics was a bit sensitive for me, I shut myself off. Then my father spoke up;''I always knew it. Even before he came out. He never showed any strong interest towards men (hence the conclusion that he might like girls), he was very keen on technology, he hang around with boys and he went out with me whenever I was hunting, fishing, fixing my car, meeting up with my pals, etc. He was never like other girls, it was hard to even see him as one. He disliked every clothing/object that was seen as 'girly or women's'. I also noticed his struggle when he grew older. When I discussed about this with my ex-wife (my mother), I told her I wasn't surprised at all. She's taking her time but she will come around. He is who he is, whenever he identifies as a girl, boy, or something between. I'll still love him and I'm freaking proud of
A new studentWelcome to my class, Eerika-sempai! You've chosen such a horrible class but.. I'm more than happy to welcome you. You were the first person to ever speak with me & use male pronounces. ouo Damn, she's SMART and TALENTED! (She literally managed 8th grade in half a year, the other half is based on 9th grade.) I hope she can put some sense into my stupid classmates.
Our story (1 year anniversary is soon!)We started as siblings, our connection was made right after she came to talk with me. I personally didn't think much of her, she was my precious little sister who needed to be protected because our 'parents' were rarely by our side. I admit, she can be childish and silly, yet that's why I loved to take care of her. And yes, we had so much fun together! She wasn't the most ordinary female (I mean, she was literally asking to sleep next to me when the day turned into night.) My lifetime dream has been to be the protector instead of being protected, that's why I loved to stay by her side. Oh yeah, and she moves a lot.Our innocent hand holdings and hugs turned into more.. intimate and continuous. I couldn't live without her touch. I tried to be as close as possible, no matter how silly my reasons were. The closer we grew, the more I realized how deep my feelings were towards her. That's why I teased her so much~ And staring-contests, awh.Our love would've be forbidden in so m
1st MarchWe went shopping, to get our presents for the upcoming birthday. I decided to buy things for school and a book that I'm supposed to read and write an essay about it so that I could raise my Finnish grade. Of course I could've borrowed a book from the library but they didn't have anything worth reading (or maybe I'm just picky, pfh.) I chose a book called 'Boy'. The story is based on the writer's son, who is transgender. He is currently living as a 'full-time' male, he has a job, wife and he's like any other person. Just living and experiencing. His mother has been very brave to even publish this book. Trans* related books are quite rare here. The idea made me feel happy and it did give me hope for my own future. I gave the book to my mother and she frowned as if she had never seen anything like that. The cover has an image of a trans* male whose back has been damaged because of the duck tape he's been using to hide his chest. She looked up at me; 'Who's this freak?'I rolle
Work experienceI'm going to work during this week and for today's experience, I can say; I LOVE IT! My boss was so chill (otherwise I wouldn't be writing this, I'm already at home), workmates didn't question my gender at all- so I suppose I pass very well without trying (all I could hear is 'he', 'boy', 'little/young man', etc.) And when they asked what's my name, I had this awkward silence before I said 'Everyone calls me Alex, I hope you could do the same.' (Now I don't feel like I'm lying. No one calls me by my birth name. >_>) That's it, even when I couldn't get any contact with those two teenager guys, I'm glad I chose this place. vuv The only problem is, tomorrow I have a permission to use their work clothing. It would be embarrassing and even weird to change with the men, I hope they have a spare bathroom for 'shy' people. .u.